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Trust part 2

Posted: October 15, 2008 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas
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Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him my Savior and my God! Psalm 42:5

pa140024I’m broken as I write this, because last night about 11:45pm we lost Meshach. I’m saddened but thankful that his Mama, Paige was petting him as he left. We loved that little monkey and wished he wasn’t gone but he was obviously in pain. It’s hard because we could fear that we didn’t do all we could for him. Hindsight is 20/20 and when we thought he was getting better and he wasn’t. I am glad he was with us than in a noisy kennel somewhere. I know he knew we loved him. I don’t know absolutely where animals go when they die but I’m sure it is better.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

I quoted this section of Proverbs in the previous post before we had lost him. You’ve often seen this quoted new-puppies-2008-09-07-64on plaques etc. This is so much easier when you don’t have reason to doubt a decision. It’s also easier if you still have hope. I don’t really understand why … We prayed that he would be OK and God for whatever reason said “no”. It’s hard to understand. The thing about God is that He has already proven Himself faithful to us. He’s proven Himself trustworthy. Even when I don’t understand I trust Him. God is big enough and loves us enough even when we question Him. Christian’s still have problems & trials. Jesus said when we have trials, not if.

Though He Slay Me I will Trust- “Though he slay me, yet will I hope in Him;” Job 13:15

new-puppies-2008-09-22-89The good news is He isn’t trying to slay us. He loves us.

So, I would
be really easy to think this whole situation was a nightmare and wish we’d never brought him home but I am so thankful that we had him as long as we did. He was a huge blessing to us and I would do it all over again. We are going to miss him terribly but know God will the loss for our good. Your Mama And Papa love and miss you little Meshach!

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Trust part 1

Posted: October 14, 2008 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas, God
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Hey guys. Yesterday was a yucky day. Meshach our little blue (brown) puppy has been really sick. He started throwing up Saturday and called the vet on Sunday but couldn’t get an appointment until Tuesday at 1pm. He wouldn’t eat and whenever he dranknew-puppies-2008-09-07-7 water it would come back up in a few moments. He started to be able to hold down water Sunday night so we thought he was getting better. Monday he was really bad off, he had what looked like blood in his pee and was really listless, so we called and they said we could come and wait to see if something came available (3-5 hour wait). So we went, thankfully it was only about an hour and a half. They tested both puppies and didn’t really find anything but bacteria. So he gave him a shot and us some drops with vitamins and medicine. Once again we thought after the shot he would start to feel better. He still wouldn’t eat. He could hold down water. This morning he was worse than ever. He hasn’t eaten for a bit. He weighs 1 pound and a couple ounces and Shadrach (the “Blue Merle”) is 2 pounds 7 ounces. He is looking skinny but it doesn’t take much if you only weigh a pound. So when we got up this morning he was so weak he couldn’t even stand up and when I stood him up he stumbled sideways and can’t stay on his feet. We knew he had to eat so we watered down some canned puppy food and put it in a squeeze mustard bottle. We held his mouth open and squirted it in. He’s still not doing very well. Shadrach on the other hand is a moose. He’s pretty much fearless which isn’t that smart with two grumpy old bachelor dogs around. He has even begun to eat the Boyz dry dog food.
As I had said earlier yesterday was a bad day but it was also a good day. We have begun to prepare ourselves that baby Meshach may not make it. We don’t want him to go and it will be very sad if he does but yesterday I was able to give him completely to God. You may think he is just a dog but he has helped me have a small taste what it is like for a parent with a critically ill child. I know how quickly, he’s only been with us a week, but I have fallen in love with him. Shadrach was kind of the one I bonded with right away when we visited them but Meshach stole my heart when I got to spend time with him. He is such a sweetheart. Gentle, cuddly and affectionate. I can’t imagine what it is like for a new-puppies-2008-09-27-35family to lose a human baby. This sure doesn’t compare to that but it made me think. In the process giving Meshach to God I had to come to grips with the fact that everyone in my life is only there by the grace of God. He is in charge and he knows best. I may not understand and I can even disagree but no matter what I trust Him. Yesterday was also the day I surrendered Paige to Him as well. We had a scare a few months ago. Paige had to undergo some tests and a procedure. I was a wreck. I don’t think I have ever prayed so much. Everything turned out to be ok but it gave me some fear for the future. It really wasn’t resolved until yesterday. Paige is God’s as well. He knows I need her but He knows best. I find comfort in the passage

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)

Please keep Meshach in your prayers and us as well. Love ya’ll, m

Well … this is going to be the “new” site where I can let ya’ll know what is going on in our lives. I’m sittin‘ here with the withpups-1puppies on me. If I am in the house you can be sure that they are on me. Here we are right now.

So I guess I’ll get right to the point. Like the title suggests ” I’m nobody’s daddy and now I know why … ” I really do. I’m not sure I could handle it. I know I’m good with kids but they can always go home. These guys really need a lot of attention. They have taken to screaming if we walk away from them and sometimes we do have to walk away. You know the kind of scream if you are a parent (human or doggie). The “I am super furious, your not a very good parent and if you don’t come back I may die and Mama will be really mad if she comes home and I’m dead” Scream. I get frustrated. I guess you would be weird if you didn’t. I’ve had more pee and stuff than I ever had to handle before. I actually tried to catch pee in my hand so it didn’t go on the couch. It’s hard and I have to remember that they really want to be with me. They are babies and really depend on me. My buddy David isn’t much help, he says, “Wait till they start driving!” Right now they are sacked out on either side. I’m using the laptop but I have been known to sit at the PC with the little dog bed in my lap and two little babies starin up at me until they doze off. It really helps me understand a bit of what parents go through. I know it isn’t the same so don’t e-mail me. But I understand it better. As I said sometimes it is tough but most of the time it is more glorious for words. Shadrach and Meshach are a true joy. Recently at Verge (a church we go to on Saturday night) and the Pastor answered a question I had always had about God. It was still hard for me to understand why God made us. I know he wants us, but why? Pastor Alan likened it to the reason that parents have children. You had them because you wanted to share your lives with a life that was a little part of you. You know they will screw up, you know they will lie directly to your face, you know that they will be hurt by life. You wanted to love them in spite of all of that. The most amazing thing is that God loves us just like that. See what the bible says about him:

The LORD is merciful and gracious,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
He will not always chide,
nor will he keep his anger forever.
He does not deal with us according to our sins,
nor repay us according to our iniquities.

For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far does he remove our transgressions from us.

As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear him.
For he knows our frame;withpups-2
he remembers that we are dust.
As for man, his days are like grass;
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
For the wind passes over it, and it is gone,
and its place knows it no more.
But the steadfast love of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him,
and his righteousness to children’s children,
to those who keep his covenant
and remember to do his commandments.
The LORD has established his throne in the heavens,
and his kingdom rules over all.

Psalm 103:8-19 (ESV)

Amazing. How much he loves us. If you don’t know. ASK HIM! He’ll let you know.

I see His love in the puppies, in the variety of food He has given us, in Fall. He loves us. I am going to try and love the puppies as God loves us. Heck, I’m trying to love all of you the same way. So if you are a prayin people, pray that He will help me do both.

I think I’d be a better Grandparent. Spoil and go. I love ya! m