Well … this is going to be the “new” site where I can let ya’ll know what is going on in our lives. I’m sittin‘ here with the puppies on me. If I am in the house you can be sure that they are on me. Here we are right now.
So I guess I’ll get right to the point. Like the title suggests ” I’m nobody’s daddy and now I know why … ” I really do. I’m not sure I could handle it. I know I’m good with kids but they can always go home. These guys really need a lot of attention. They have taken to screaming if we walk away from them and sometimes we do have to walk away. You know the kind of scream if you are a parent (human or doggie). The “I am super furious, your not a very good parent and if you don’t come back I may die and Mama will be really mad if she comes home and I’m dead” Scream. I get frustrated. I guess you would be weird if you didn’t. I’ve had more pee and stuff than I ever had to handle before. I actually tried to catch pee in my hand so it didn’t go on the couch. It’s hard and I have to remember that they really want to be with me. They are babies and really depend on me. My buddy David isn’t much help, he says, “Wait till they start driving!” Right now they are sacked out on either side. I’m using the laptop but I have been known to sit at the PC with the little dog bed in my lap and two little babies starin up at me until they doze off. It really helps me understand a bit of what parents go through. I know it isn’t the same so don’t e-mail me. But I understand it better. As I said sometimes it is tough but most of the time it is more glorious for words. Shadrach and Meshach are a true joy. Recently at Verge (a church we go to on Saturday night) and the Pastor answered a question I had always had about God. It was still hard for me to understand why God made us. I know he wants us, but why? Pastor Alan likened it to the reason that parents have children. You had them because you wanted to share your lives with a life that was a little part of you. You know they will screw up, you know they will lie directly to your face, you know that they will be hurt by life. You wanted to love them in spite of all of that. The most amazing thing is that God loves us just like that. See what the bible says about him:
The LORD is merciful and gracious,
slow to anger and abounding in steadfast love.
He will not always chide,
nor will he keep his anger forever.
He does not deal with us according to our sins,
nor repay us according to our iniquities.
For as high as the heavens are above the earth,
so great is his steadfast love toward those who fear him;
as far as the east is from the west,
so far does he remove our transgressions from us.
As a father shows compassion to his children,
so the LORD shows compassion to those who fear him.
For he knows our frame;
he remembers that we are dust.
As for man, his days are like grass;
he flourishes like a flower of the field;
For the wind passes over it, and it is gone,
and its place knows it no more.
But the steadfast love of the LORD is from everlasting to everlasting on those who fear him,
and his righteousness to children’s children,
to those who keep his covenant
and remember to do his commandments.
The LORD has established his throne in the heavens,
and his kingdom rules over all.
Psalm 103:8-19 (ESV)
Amazing. How much he loves us. If you don’t know. ASK HIM! He’ll let you know.
I see His love in the puppies, in the variety of food He has given us, in Fall. He loves us. I am going to try and love the puppies as God loves us. Heck, I’m trying to love all of you the same way. So if you are a prayin people, pray that He will help me do both.
I think I’d be a better Grandparent. Spoil and go. I love ya! m