Posts Tagged ‘death’

This week: my 2 dogs Loki & Gargoyle, best-friends & family members  of 14 years, had to be put to sleep, my aging Dad Gary is  ill without a known cause and without a relationship with the Creator, I’m bored, bullied, baffled and betrayed

… but nothing will knock Your praise from my mouth.

This week: Still happily married to Paige, my beautiful bride of 14 years, Veronica & Shadrach our 2 Chihuahua puppies always make everything better, I’m blessed and beloved

… and nothing will keep Your praise  from my mouth.

Loki & Gargoyle

DosWeirdos: Loki & Gar


Thanks musician and singer Kristene Mueller for helping put it all in perspective.

Lyrics Below.

Praise The Lord

Praise the Lord, oh my soul,
And let all that’s within me praise His name.

For I will not die, I will live,
And I will tell of the Works of the Lord
And sing of His wonders.

I will not die, I will live,
‘Cause He’s a great God.
He’s a great God.

And I get to love You through whatever comes.
What a privilege
That I get to love You through whatever comes.
Oh, how sweet it is,

And nothing’s gonna take Your praise out of my mouth
As long as I shall live,

And I will not die, I will live,
I will not die, I will live.
For I will not die, I will live,
And I will tell of the Works of the Lord,

And nothing’s gonna take Your praise out of my mouth
As long as I shall live,

‘Cause He’s a great God.
He’s a great God.
You’re a great God.
You’re a great God.

KillI saw this saying on a bumper sticker on a car yesterday and it made me laugh. I’d seen it before but it’s pretty much funny every time. It also got me thinking about something Jesus said in Mathew chapter 5 verse 21&22:

“You have heard that our ancestors were told, ‘You must not murder. If you commit murder, you are subject to judgment.’ But I say, if you are even angry with someone, you are subject to judgment! If you call someone an idiot, you are in danger of being brought before the court. And if you curse someone,  you are in danger of the fires of hell.”

He also said in Matthew chapter 5 verse 27&28:

“You have heard the commandment that says, ‘You must not commit adultery.’ But I say, anyone who even looks at a woman with lust has already committed adultery with her in his heart.”

So, like the bumper sticker says, if there weren’t laws we might kill. I know I’ve been mad enough. What kept me from it. My goodness? Nope … fear of jail and trouble. 🙂 Would you cheat on your wife or girlfriend if she wouldn’t catch you, would you take a thousand dollars that isn’t yours if you knew you could never get caught? Jesus was saying that these things are all heart things. If you would do it but you don’t want to get in trouble it’s all the same.  Do you think you are above all this cheating, stealing and hating? Do you drive differently when a cop is behind you? Have you ever slowed down from speeding when you see a cop? So why do you follow these laws? Cause you will get in trouble if you don’t. So when you do follow the traffic laws because you don’t want a ticket are you good or just subdued?

DISCLAIMER: I used “quotes” when I quoted things Jesus said even though I am almost completely sure He wasn’t speaking “New Living Translation”, everyone knows they all spoke King James Translation. 😛

unicorn I have always been a big movie guy, if you know me well you know this. Over the past few months I have started to hear things about having expectations versus the real outcome. We expect things to go a certain way and when they don’t … disappointment. Jesus’ followers expected He was going to overthrow the Romans and rule but He got executed and they were shocked. So they quit the ministry and went back to fishin’. It’s not what they expected.

What the heck does this have to do with movies, being ripped off or freakin’ unicorns? It does. As many of my mind changes involve the author Donald Miller (see previous posts if you don’t know what I’m talking about). We went and saw him last week and learned some stuff. Films are all about Story. You need to have a likable  or at least interesting character, you need to have conflict and then you need resolution. So the rip-off comes when we watch the film and Meg Ryan kisses Tom Hanks on the Empire State Building and they live happily ever after. Rocky Balboa calls out for Adrian, who runs down to the ring. As the ring announcer declares the fight for Apollo Creed by virtue of a split decision, Adrian and Rocky embrace while they profess their love to one another, not caring about the results of the fight and everyone lives happily ever after. The thing is nobody lives happily ever after. Don Miller said he thought that if he had a bestselling book and fat stacks of cash then he thought he wouldn’t have any problems and would even be able to talk to animals. Sounds silly but I bet you think there is something out there if you had it you would be happy. There isn’t and you won’t. Our story will resolve someday, and we’ll be dead when it happens.

I heard that we spend 67 billion dollars on foreign aid, helping people who don’t have enough food and water, get food and water. Sounds like a lot of money huh? Well somebody spends something like 280 billion on advertising. Trying to get you to think you need things you don’t. If you brush with this toothpaste people will like you, if you drink this beer you’ll get laid, if you don’t feed your baby this you are a bad parent. But if you do buy all of these thing you will live happily ever after and be able to talk to animals.

So what should we do? I’m going to still watch movies and TV but I’m going to try and not be looking for this fulfillment that I’m not going to find. If you want your life to be a great story that has a great resolution at your death then make a great story. You are really in control of your story. Love others, help people, serve , give, sacrifice, and be a blessing!

Live Loved! m

Trust pt 3

Posted: February 20, 2009 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas, God, Music, trust
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Wow, Almost Everthing Changes pt 1 ended pretty droopy, things are going so much better than that. It was a tough in_god_we_trusttime. We lost a lot then and losing Meshach was really rough. He was really sick but we were praying and had taken him to the Vet and really thought he was going to get better. When he died it hit us really hard. As I said before it is some much easier to trust when you understand. God taught me that I sure don’t understand everything but I have spent enough time with Him to trust Him. It can be hard and sometimes I falter. It’s so much easier looking back, I can see His hand in all of it, teaching, training and loving us through it. It helped us realised even more that God is really there and tuned in to us (and you). We had been going for some time to a Saturday church service at Reynolda Presbyterian called Verge748 (click text to go to it’s website) when Meshach died we didn’t think we were going to go, but we know that it really is the best place for us when everything goes wrong. The enemy (and no he’s not red with horns and a tail, but real nonetheless.) will do whatever he can to keep you from getting the help you need. If he finds out a headache will keep you from church, you should expect a lot of them, especially right before church. So we decided to go, the music is always especially good. Gene the worship leader sang a song that I don’t remember hearing before but we knew that it was God talking to us directly. I know why the devil didn’t want us to go. Here is the song:


by Aaron Strumpel

You will turn your ear to me
You will hear my cry for mercy
You will loosen things unseen
What can  man do to me?

I’ll sing for joy in Your place of rest
I’ll sleep in peace resting on Your chest
And Your voice will sound like a thousand waters
Your song will rush for ten thousand centuries

You will be my help in trouble
You will be my place of refuge
You will cut these bindings free
What can  man do to me?

Now most of this song really speaks to our situation, from hearing our cries to other parts I’m not going to cover here today, but when he got to:

I’ll sing for joy in Your place of rest
I’ll sleep in peace resting on Your chest

we both broke down. Now if you don’t have a relationship with God, this is going to sound very strange, I believe God does speak to me, but not in an audible voice. He’ll use people, books, tv, songs and even other things. I heard a Pastor named Bill Hybels talk about whispers. God speaks in whispers and when you are in relationship with Him you learn to hear these whispers. Through that song that we almost didn’t hear God told us that He knows about us, He feels the things we feel, and He loves us, you see Meshach had died on Paige’s chest while she cuddled him. We knew he had a plan even if we didn’t get it. He also gave us a peace about the whole thing. Now if this whole whisper thing sounds weird to you, it is.  God isn’t exactly like us, there is much more to Him than to us. He is not natural. He is supernatural. I can’t explain it better than that, If I were you I’d ask Him. He is there. He cares and He’ll listen and He may even whisper it to ya.

Dr. Vievil

Dr. Vi-evil

As I said looking back it’s easier to understand. ViVi is such a blessing to us. She’s not a replacement for Meshach but she’s pretty special. She is such a girly girl but tough as nails and best of all she’s a Papa’s girl. I still miss Meshach but I know where he is. He’s in good hands. love ya’ll. mike

check out the puppies myspace pages, you don’t have to be a remember to look.(turn up your volume!)




Trust part 2

Posted: October 15, 2008 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas
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Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him my Savior and my God! Psalm 42:5

pa140024I’m broken as I write this, because last night about 11:45pm we lost Meshach. I’m saddened but thankful that his Mama, Paige was petting him as he left. We loved that little monkey and wished he wasn’t gone but he was obviously in pain. It’s hard because we could fear that we didn’t do all we could for him. Hindsight is 20/20 and when we thought he was getting better and he wasn’t. I am glad he was with us than in a noisy kennel somewhere. I know he knew we loved him. I don’t know absolutely where animals go when they die but I’m sure it is better.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

I quoted this section of Proverbs in the previous post before we had lost him. You’ve often seen this quoted new-puppies-2008-09-07-64on plaques etc. This is so much easier when you don’t have reason to doubt a decision. It’s also easier if you still have hope. I don’t really understand why … We prayed that he would be OK and God for whatever reason said “no”. It’s hard to understand. The thing about God is that He has already proven Himself faithful to us. He’s proven Himself trustworthy. Even when I don’t understand I trust Him. God is big enough and loves us enough even when we question Him. Christian’s still have problems & trials. Jesus said when we have trials, not if.

Though He Slay Me I will Trust- “Though he slay me, yet will I hope in Him;” Job 13:15

new-puppies-2008-09-22-89The good news is He isn’t trying to slay us. He loves us.

So, I would
be really easy to think this whole situation was a nightmare and wish we’d never brought him home but I am so thankful that we had him as long as we did. He was a huge blessing to us and I would do it all over again. We are going to miss him terribly but know God will the loss for our good. Your Mama And Papa love and miss you little Meshach!

Trust part 1

Posted: October 14, 2008 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas, God
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Hey guys. Yesterday was a yucky day. Meshach our little blue (brown) puppy has been really sick. He started throwing up Saturday and called the vet on Sunday but couldn’t get an appointment until Tuesday at 1pm. He wouldn’t eat and whenever he dranknew-puppies-2008-09-07-7 water it would come back up in a few moments. He started to be able to hold down water Sunday night so we thought he was getting better. Monday he was really bad off, he had what looked like blood in his pee and was really listless, so we called and they said we could come and wait to see if something came available (3-5 hour wait). So we went, thankfully it was only about an hour and a half. They tested both puppies and didn’t really find anything but bacteria. So he gave him a shot and us some drops with vitamins and medicine. Once again we thought after the shot he would start to feel better. He still wouldn’t eat. He could hold down water. This morning he was worse than ever. He hasn’t eaten for a bit. He weighs 1 pound and a couple ounces and Shadrach (the “Blue Merle”) is 2 pounds 7 ounces. He is looking skinny but it doesn’t take much if you only weigh a pound. So when we got up this morning he was so weak he couldn’t even stand up and when I stood him up he stumbled sideways and can’t stay on his feet. We knew he had to eat so we watered down some canned puppy food and put it in a squeeze mustard bottle. We held his mouth open and squirted it in. He’s still not doing very well. Shadrach on the other hand is a moose. He’s pretty much fearless which isn’t that smart with two grumpy old bachelor dogs around. He has even begun to eat the Boyz dry dog food.
As I had said earlier yesterday was a bad day but it was also a good day. We have begun to prepare ourselves that baby Meshach may not make it. We don’t want him to go and it will be very sad if he does but yesterday I was able to give him completely to God. You may think he is just a dog but he has helped me have a small taste what it is like for a parent with a critically ill child. I know how quickly, he’s only been with us a week, but I have fallen in love with him. Shadrach was kind of the one I bonded with right away when we visited them but Meshach stole my heart when I got to spend time with him. He is such a sweetheart. Gentle, cuddly and affectionate. I can’t imagine what it is like for a new-puppies-2008-09-27-35family to lose a human baby. This sure doesn’t compare to that but it made me think. In the process giving Meshach to God I had to come to grips with the fact that everyone in my life is only there by the grace of God. He is in charge and he knows best. I may not understand and I can even disagree but no matter what I trust Him. Yesterday was also the day I surrendered Paige to Him as well. We had a scare a few months ago. Paige had to undergo some tests and a procedure. I was a wreck. I don’t think I have ever prayed so much. Everything turned out to be ok but it gave me some fear for the future. It really wasn’t resolved until yesterday. Paige is God’s as well. He knows I need her but He knows best. I find comfort in the passage

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)

Please keep Meshach in your prayers and us as well. Love ya’ll, m