“An “impersonal God”– well and good. A subjective God of beauty, truth and goodness, inside our own heads — better still. A formless life-force surging through us, a vast power which we can tap — best of all. But God Himself, alive, pulling at the other end of the cord, perhaps, approaching an infinite speed, the hunter, king, husband — that is quite another matter. There comes a moment when the children who have been playing at burglars hush suddenly: was that a real footstep in the hall? There comes a moment when people who have been dabbling in religion (”Man’s search for God!”) suddenly draw back. Supposing we really found Him? We never meant it to come to that! Worse still, supposing He had found us?”—C.S. Lewis, Theological Rockstar!
This quote and cartoon make me think of this verse.
Fear of the Lord is the foundation of true wisdom. -Psalm 111:10a (New Living Translation)
I don’t think it means fear in the traditional sense. Fear that God is in Heaven watching you and waiting for you to fail so He can whack you with His stick. I think it means starting to realize who He really is. All you have to do is look at creation to be awed by His bigness and creativity. There is so much variety and it is so vast. Even to our small minds and in the tiny way we can grasp a being so complex. Now even that, as C.S. Lewis said is pretty easy. Now imagine that entity knows who you are. Imagine He wants to communicate with you. Imagine He loves you and wants to have fellowship with you. That is where it gets even scarier. A big God, cool. A big God who is intimately aware of me makes me afraid. The good news is that He does love us no matter what we’ve done.