Posts Tagged ‘trust’

This week: my 2 dogs Loki & Gargoyle, best-friends & family members  of 14 years, had to be put to sleep, my aging Dad Gary is  ill without a known cause and without a relationship with the Creator, I’m bored, bullied, baffled and betrayed

… but nothing will knock Your praise from my mouth.

This week: Still happily married to Paige, my beautiful bride of 14 years, Veronica & Shadrach our 2 Chihuahua puppies always make everything better, I’m blessed and beloved

… and nothing will keep Your praise  from my mouth.

Loki & Gargoyle

DosWeirdos: Loki & Gar


Thanks musician and singer Kristene Mueller for helping put it all in perspective.

Lyrics Below.

Praise The Lord

Praise the Lord, oh my soul,
And let all that’s within me praise His name.

For I will not die, I will live,
And I will tell of the Works of the Lord
And sing of His wonders.

I will not die, I will live,
‘Cause He’s a great God.
He’s a great God.

And I get to love You through whatever comes.
What a privilege
That I get to love You through whatever comes.
Oh, how sweet it is,

And nothing’s gonna take Your praise out of my mouth
As long as I shall live,

And I will not die, I will live,
I will not die, I will live.
For I will not die, I will live,
And I will tell of the Works of the Lord,

And nothing’s gonna take Your praise out of my mouth
As long as I shall live,

‘Cause He’s a great God.
He’s a great God.
You’re a great God.
You’re a great God.

So You Don't Want To Go To Church Anymore

Much of these ideas came from the book “So You Don’t Want To Go To Church Anymore”. You can download it and read it for free. Here:

So You Don’t Want To Go To Church Anymore

Here are some of the things I am chewing on this week:

Does Trusting God to do what I think is best really trusting Him?

Trusting God is to allow Him to do whatever He desires. If I focus that trust on a specific outcome am I just trying to manipulate Him.

Don’t just think of the ways I can fix something, in hindsight it is rarely my idea that He uses.

Day to Day, I can do whatever He puts before me. Savor it without striving and trying to make something happen. Enjoy the process. I can trust His plan. I’m not really in control anyway but I can trust Him.

God meets your needs day by day.

In the moment celebrate what is before you.

Don’t defend yourself.

singing is not Worship, attendance is not Fellowship and rule keeping is not Relationship

Jesus didn’t leave us with a system but a Spirit.

We don’t want ONE to become a less controlled replication of the same institution. Don’t try and get from each other what should come from God.

Lets not try and figure out the best formula to “do” church. Just do life, talk about what is happening and get to know Him more.

Our participation in the Body should be much more than just here.

We will do whatever He gives us to do whith whoever He gives us to do it with.

Equip people to know Him first.

Intentionally walk together as an expression of community, Listening to God together. Sharing lives and resources. Encouraging and Caring for each other and doing whatever else God might ask us to do.


Almost Everything Changes pt 3

Posted: March 6, 2009 in God, ONE
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Faith !?!?

Faith !?!?

It really is crazy how God works sometimes but I’m way ahead of myself. 😛   So I left off with a pretty size-able rant about the church but if you know me you know I can be pretty passionate about something I believe in and I sure believe christians misrepresent God. Before I go off again we should continue on with the story … (I had updated this already but I lost it. backup, backup, backup!) So heck, I don’t even really know where I am in the story but  know it keeps getting bigger. Paige and I really kinda headed out on our own. We have some friends that are coming along side of us but most day to day decisions are us and God. We still didn’t have a place to meet so Paige saw another building pretty close to us, it was huge. I, being the Giant-of-Faith that I am, discouraged her from calling, this place was huge and nothing we could ever afford. We were still praying that God would make a way for us to get into the other smaller place. So she ended up calling the Realtor and they said it was 2900 Square feet and that it was $100,000. Now this isn’t much in Los Angeles or even Boise, ID but it’s a chunk of change here and more than we’ve got or want to borrow. So we forgot about it. A few weeks later, Paige got a message from a guy asking her to call him back. Fortunately, we are able to pay our bills so we had no fear that it was a creditor, mad at us. So she called him. His name was Richard and he was the owner of the giant house and he was just checking in to see if we were interested in the house. Paige told him that we were, and why we wanted it, and that we couldn’t afford it. He asked what kind of money we were working with.  She told him, little to none. He thought it was strange to be looking for a place with no money. She told him again that we were looking for a place for our church



/ ministry. He didn’t really say anything. So after a lull she went on. She said that she thought that God was going to put us in the place He wanted us in and that we were just trying to go where He wanted us. We know that this sounds crazy, we sound like lunatics, it is crazy, but it’s also true. Another lull as we imagine Richard getting ready to hang up the phone. He doesn’t. He just says that he thinks God may be behind the call. 🙂 See it is crazy!  Crazy but true. He says he wants to meet with us to show us the building.  CRAZY! So we set up a date a few days later. We can’t believe it.As the day gets closer both Paige and I begin to think something crazy is going to happen. We don’t know exactly what and we are afraid to get our hopes up too high, even though we trust God. Sometimes, most times, He has a different timetable that we do. Thankfully, He always has a better plan, and timing plays into that. We are afraid even though we trust because, unfortunately, we are human, which turns out to be the best option on earth (unless you are one of our Chihuahua’s). He knows we don’t have money but want to meet with us. Odd.

So the day arrives and we go to meet with Richard. We’ve prayed quite a bit about and for this moment. I’m afraid of what he is going to think of me. I’ve got a 5 inch chin,beardy thingy. I can imagine we aren’t what he expects. He’s cool right off the bat, he’s older, but he says he didn’t expect anything so he wasn’t disappointed. He warns us that the place isn’t perfect. We weren’t thinking it was. So he takes us on a tour. It is huge. I can’t even tell you how many rooms there are. They are everywhere. The floor is mostly hardwood and is beat up but mostly with a little cleaning and some varnish would be wonderful. I didn’t really have enough time to plot out how it could all work but I can see it. There is even an semi-finished upstairs. It’s all framed out to add more rooms but doesn’t have sheetrock yet. It is even set for plumbing. Cool. So we get done and he asks us what we think. We love it.

to be continued …

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Trust pt 3

Posted: February 20, 2009 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas, God, Music, trust
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Wow, Almost Everthing Changes pt 1 ended pretty droopy, things are going so much better than that. It was a tough in_god_we_trusttime. We lost a lot then and losing Meshach was really rough. He was really sick but we were praying and had taken him to the Vet and really thought he was going to get better. When he died it hit us really hard. As I said before it is some much easier to trust when you understand. God taught me that I sure don’t understand everything but I have spent enough time with Him to trust Him. It can be hard and sometimes I falter. It’s so much easier looking back, I can see His hand in all of it, teaching, training and loving us through it. It helped us realised even more that God is really there and tuned in to us (and you). We had been going for some time to a Saturday church service at Reynolda Presbyterian called Verge748 (click text to go to it’s website) when Meshach died we didn’t think we were going to go, but we know that it really is the best place for us when everything goes wrong. The enemy (and no he’s not red with horns and a tail, but real nonetheless.) will do whatever he can to keep you from getting the help you need. If he finds out a headache will keep you from church, you should expect a lot of them, especially right before church. So we decided to go, the music is always especially good. Gene the worship leader sang a song that I don’t remember hearing before but we knew that it was God talking to us directly. I know why the devil didn’t want us to go. Here is the song:


by Aaron Strumpel

You will turn your ear to me
You will hear my cry for mercy
You will loosen things unseen
What can  man do to me?

I’ll sing for joy in Your place of rest
I’ll sleep in peace resting on Your chest
And Your voice will sound like a thousand waters
Your song will rush for ten thousand centuries

You will be my help in trouble
You will be my place of refuge
You will cut these bindings free
What can  man do to me?

Now most of this song really speaks to our situation, from hearing our cries to other parts I’m not going to cover here today, but when he got to:

I’ll sing for joy in Your place of rest
I’ll sleep in peace resting on Your chest

we both broke down. Now if you don’t have a relationship with God, this is going to sound very strange, I believe God does speak to me, but not in an audible voice. He’ll use people, books, tv, songs and even other things. I heard a Pastor named Bill Hybels talk about whispers. God speaks in whispers and when you are in relationship with Him you learn to hear these whispers. Through that song that we almost didn’t hear God told us that He knows about us, He feels the things we feel, and He loves us, you see Meshach had died on Paige’s chest while she cuddled him. We knew he had a plan even if we didn’t get it. He also gave us a peace about the whole thing. Now if this whole whisper thing sounds weird to you, it is.  God isn’t exactly like us, there is much more to Him than to us. He is not natural. He is supernatural. I can’t explain it better than that, If I were you I’d ask Him. He is there. He cares and He’ll listen and He may even whisper it to ya.

Dr. Vievil

Dr. Vi-evil

As I said looking back it’s easier to understand. ViVi is such a blessing to us. She’s not a replacement for Meshach but she’s pretty special. She is such a girly girl but tough as nails and best of all she’s a Papa’s girl. I still miss Meshach but I know where he is. He’s in good hands. love ya’ll. mike

check out the puppies myspace pages, you don’t have to be a remember to look.(turn up your volume!)




Trust part 2

Posted: October 15, 2008 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas
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Why are you cast down, O my soul? And why are you disquieted within me? Hope in God, for I shall yet praise Him my Savior and my God! Psalm 42:5

pa140024I’m broken as I write this, because last night about 11:45pm we lost Meshach. I’m saddened but thankful that his Mama, Paige was petting him as he left. We loved that little monkey and wished he wasn’t gone but he was obviously in pain. It’s hard because we could fear that we didn’t do all we could for him. Hindsight is 20/20 and when we thought he was getting better and he wasn’t. I am glad he was with us than in a noisy kennel somewhere. I know he knew we loved him. I don’t know absolutely where animals go when they die but I’m sure it is better.

Trust in the LORD with all your heart, And lean not on your own understanding; In all your ways acknowledge Him, And He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6

I quoted this section of Proverbs in the previous post before we had lost him. You’ve often seen this quoted new-puppies-2008-09-07-64on plaques etc. This is so much easier when you don’t have reason to doubt a decision. It’s also easier if you still have hope. I don’t really understand why … We prayed that he would be OK and God for whatever reason said “no”. It’s hard to understand. The thing about God is that He has already proven Himself faithful to us. He’s proven Himself trustworthy. Even when I don’t understand I trust Him. God is big enough and loves us enough even when we question Him. Christian’s still have problems & trials. Jesus said when we have trials, not if.

Though He Slay Me I will Trust- “Though he slay me, yet will I hope in Him;” Job 13:15

new-puppies-2008-09-22-89The good news is He isn’t trying to slay us. He loves us.

So, I would
be really easy to think this whole situation was a nightmare and wish we’d never brought him home but I am so thankful that we had him as long as we did. He was a huge blessing to us and I would do it all over again. We are going to miss him terribly but know God will the loss for our good. Your Mama And Papa love and miss you little Meshach!

Trust part 1

Posted: October 14, 2008 in Chihuahua, Chihuahuas, God
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Hey guys. Yesterday was a yucky day. Meshach our little blue (brown) puppy has been really sick. He started throwing up Saturday and called the vet on Sunday but couldn’t get an appointment until Tuesday at 1pm. He wouldn’t eat and whenever he dranknew-puppies-2008-09-07-7 water it would come back up in a few moments. He started to be able to hold down water Sunday night so we thought he was getting better. Monday he was really bad off, he had what looked like blood in his pee and was really listless, so we called and they said we could come and wait to see if something came available (3-5 hour wait). So we went, thankfully it was only about an hour and a half. They tested both puppies and didn’t really find anything but bacteria. So he gave him a shot and us some drops with vitamins and medicine. Once again we thought after the shot he would start to feel better. He still wouldn’t eat. He could hold down water. This morning he was worse than ever. He hasn’t eaten for a bit. He weighs 1 pound and a couple ounces and Shadrach (the “Blue Merle”) is 2 pounds 7 ounces. He is looking skinny but it doesn’t take much if you only weigh a pound. So when we got up this morning he was so weak he couldn’t even stand up and when I stood him up he stumbled sideways and can’t stay on his feet. We knew he had to eat so we watered down some canned puppy food and put it in a squeeze mustard bottle. We held his mouth open and squirted it in. He’s still not doing very well. Shadrach on the other hand is a moose. He’s pretty much fearless which isn’t that smart with two grumpy old bachelor dogs around. He has even begun to eat the Boyz dry dog food.
As I had said earlier yesterday was a bad day but it was also a good day. We have begun to prepare ourselves that baby Meshach may not make it. We don’t want him to go and it will be very sad if he does but yesterday I was able to give him completely to God. You may think he is just a dog but he has helped me have a small taste what it is like for a parent with a critically ill child. I know how quickly, he’s only been with us a week, but I have fallen in love with him. Shadrach was kind of the one I bonded with right away when we visited them but Meshach stole my heart when I got to spend time with him. He is such a sweetheart. Gentle, cuddly and affectionate. I can’t imagine what it is like for a new-puppies-2008-09-27-35family to lose a human baby. This sure doesn’t compare to that but it made me think. In the process giving Meshach to God I had to come to grips with the fact that everyone in my life is only there by the grace of God. He is in charge and he knows best. I may not understand and I can even disagree but no matter what I trust Him. Yesterday was also the day I surrendered Paige to Him as well. We had a scare a few months ago. Paige had to undergo some tests and a procedure. I was a wreck. I don’t think I have ever prayed so much. Everything turned out to be ok but it gave me some fear for the future. It really wasn’t resolved until yesterday. Paige is God’s as well. He knows I need her but He knows best. I find comfort in the passage

Trust in the LORD with all your heart,
And lean not on your own understanding;
In all your ways acknowledge Him,
And He shall direct your paths. Proverbs 3:5-6 (NKJV)

Please keep Meshach in your prayers and us as well. Love ya’ll, m